state of my union
i spent all of thursday-my day off- sleeping and/or laying in bed attempting to sleep while the blue angels of fleet week flew over the island a million time. intermittently i watched 4 episodes of project runway online, up til the part 1 finale.
-by nature of loving all things 40s and 50s, I want Kenley to win.
-because of kenley’s lame attitude, I want Leanne to win. And that wedding dress was to die for.
-korto probably deserves it most since her life story is far more compelling than K and L, and she has a family.
the food eaten in my waking hours included:
- homemade eggwich muffin thing
-garlic triscuts
-caramel corn rice cakes
-ramen, cooked with noodley broth
-ramen, uncooked and smashed up, sprinkled with seasoning.
i feel really bloated today…thanks 66% daily-intake-of-sodium from the ramen.
i was in such a lametastic mood because i was crying on wednesday night. my boyf hates SF and neither of us can really afford to live here…not to mention that we live in the crappy parts of the city as is.
he is a musician. (me….dating a musician? surprise surprise)
the lead singer of his band is on tour with his “side project” that has gained way too much commercial success. boyf is convinced that, although lead singer guy has dicked the band around for over 2 years, he will come back to them.
i feel like lead guy will never come back to them. i have not yet told the boyf of this opinion as i know it will cause a huge fight.
boyf wants to move to Vegas. i haaaaaaaaattttttte vegas…it encapsulates everything i don’t enjoy - booze, smoking, silicone, uncomfortable heat and late nights.
boyf WILL move to vegas as soon as his current bandmates say that he has a rent-free spot in their huge apartment. yeah, of course free rent would entice me too.
having this idea of vegas and what-could-be is killing me because he is finding a reason why he dislikes SF in everything now.
i finally asked, “so, what will happen when you move?” after avoiding this convo for as long as possible.
his response was, “do you want to be in a long distance relationship?”
i have always been anti-long distance.
we didn’t continue the conversation.
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this is the man i want to marry, btw. i have never invested so much emotion and hope into one person.
