so, like, what’s been up, yo?
i haven’t really written here in a long time….you know, like life stuff not just random pics.
yeah, i’m still living with the parents. Goal date for move out would be next april/june-ish, hopefully after i find out which university will finally open their golden gates to me.
in the last 4-5ish months, I started a new awesome job. i was extremely, unreasonably anxious. I lost about 15lbs. since May….from stress (and from walking 3 miles twice a week. Rose Bowl.) Friends are like, “OMG you look great!” but i kinda feel like the weight came off just because i was too anxious to eat, so i feel like a fraud, in a sense. But whatever, I’m loving it! One of my classes at school is a 90 min. yoga 2x a week too. Good times. I got my first pairs of skinny jeans and I’m stoked.
i actually sought out hypnotherapy for my anxiety despite being a total skeptic since forever. 3 different sessions in 2 months. i definitely feel like it helped a lot. it’s kind of like a massage for your soul (i sound like a fucking hippie, i know). i listen to the recordings of my sessions as i fall asleep at night - a much better alternative to my formerly leaving the tv on.
of course, as in any job, there is always that ONE FUCKING PERSON who totally sucks. I don’t know why I let this one person bother me so much. She’s condescending. I’m trying to figure out why I feel like she has this power over me. Power. Control. (It’s probably subconsciously related to BDSM. yeah.) I need to have the control. (Surprisingly, behind closed doors I’m more of a sub. teehee.) Anyway, she will make her own fate, as several people have complained about her.
i’m a fulltime student and working fulltime. it’s been pretty challenging. math is all consuming with two hours of work each night, and french, which was my reliable easy A class, is getting to the stuff that I don’t remember from HS. i’m like THISCLOSE to transferring. I get kind of easily annoyed when I’m on campus because everyone is FUCKING RETARDED, for the most part.
i had a cancer concern for a time, but all is well.
the summer was great and i love my friends. great concerts, lots of baseball. i also love the dodgers so I’m super bummed about their season. i’m not really a FB watcher (so shoot me) so i await hockey and basketball.
time is going so fast and all the free time i used to have doesn’t exist anymore. i fall asleep at like 10:45 like a fucking geriatric because i’m exhausted.
Mad Men is awesome, my guilty pleasure Gossip Girl is back, Project Runway is downright bitchy and relatively boring. What else? Inception was effing amazing. i’m reading the final book of the Girl w/ the Dragon Tattoo series when i have the time.
i’m pretty troubled by my feelings on prop.19 (fuckin’ legalize it, man) because i was so sure i was voting yes yes yes yeeeeeeesssss. but really, do i want the gov’t to be able to regulate pot & put private growers out of business….do i really wanna have Walmart (fuck Walmart) selling watered down pot? Uhhh….after HempCon last weekend I’m totally unsure. but of course, yay pot!
i’m planning to post more worthwhile stuff that bathroom mirror iphone pics. like i have soooooo many readers.
toodles.
